Who do you choose between your soulmate and the love of your life? What are the limits that you can cross for your love? Should you cross them? At what point do you stop looking for answers and let go? Can you defy your fate? Do you have the right to decide the fate of someone else’s life?
“I think a part of you will be mine to love in every life.”
These are some of the questions that went through my mind while reading Epoch. I never thought I’d be thinking such deep thoughts when I’d read the first of the Transcend, the prequel to Epoch.
Swayze has dreams for her life. Dreams that involve Griffin, the love of her life. And yet, she can remember memories from another life. Memories that makes her aware of exactly who the reason was of the death of the person whose memories she remembers. And although she loves Griffin from the core of her being, she also can’t let go of Nate. Nate who tells her that she is the reincarnation of Daisy, his first love. Daisy – who died the year Swayze was born. Daisy – whose life is so entangled with Swayze that she can’t escape those memories.
Epoch is all about Swayze fighting to learn more of her past. Swayze is not the brave and carefree Swayze we saw in Transcend. She is scared for her life. She knows the man who was responsible for Daisy’s death is roaming freely and she has nothing to prove her claims. She loves Griffin. She wants to grow old with him. But she can’t stop thinking about Nate. He has an allure to her that goes beyond her soul. And Nate’s daughter Morgan too. These two are her connection to a past she can’t let go of. And Griff is the future she wants.
“What if some people are meant to pass through our lives instead of walking along beside us?”
Griffin knows Swayze is the one. He is ready to start his life with her. But Swayze is so hell bent on finding the truth behind her memories, that Griff feels like he’s losing her. He is ready to do anything to make Swayze feel safe. But is that enough?
“I’m not going to watch you self-destruct. I’m not going to watch you fall in love with another man.”
Nate has lost the two loves of his life. He only had his third and final love, his daughter Morgan before Swayze stormed into his love. Discovering his first love and his best friend in her was a relief for him. But now he is conflicted by the separate space Swayze has created in his heart, separate to the part of her that is Daisy. But Swayze is not his and he can’t selfishly keep her from her life, a life which was perfect before she met him.
“It’s just what’s always been in my heart. You died, but I lived and so has my love for you.”
We see these three characters struggle with the curveball life threw at them in Epoch.
This book wasn’t perfect. Many readers might be frustrated by Swayze’s indecision throughout the book. I was frustrated too. But I never got annoyed with her. The author was successful in conveying Swayze’s inner turmoil to me, and I really felt for her. At one point, when Swayze reaches a decision, my heart broke. And then when another twist comes, my heart mended and slightly broke again. But then the epilogue mended my heart again and some more.
This book had a shocking twist that made me actually stop and think about how I felt about it. I didn’t expect that twist from this book. But by the end of the book, I was comfortable with that twist.
Normally, I detest love triangles. And I’m always on a team. But this duology felt more than a mere love triangle to me. It was more than about who she ends up with. I was invested in a happy ending for all three of them, even if neither of them got the girl.
I don’t think I’ll ever forget Swayze, Griff or Nate.
In the end, neither Swayze nor the readers do not get all our questions answered. But I think there’s a beauty in that. The beauty in letting go.
My Rating: ★★★★☆